Lawdamercy, Springsteen Saves!
Testimony from the Howling Dog Choir (or Tramps Like Us, Baby We're Born Again)
Creem , 1978-10
By Robert Duncan
The middle-aged white man who runs the biggest oldies shop in the very old city of New Orleans is ranting hysterically on the edge of tears. He has recently seen the movie American Hot Wax and senses that history has passed him by one last time.
"That's right. I was a disk jockey in Canton, Ohio when Alan Freed was a d.j. in Akron. I was playing nigger records, and you know what Alan Freed was playing??? He was playing country & western! Country & western music! Then he starts playing nigger records and they fire him after a day. One day.
"Well, I'm sitting in this coffee shop with him afterwards, and he's stirring his coffee real slow and looking over my shoulder out the window. I says to him, 'Alan, just look at what you're doing. 'And he says, 'What?' And I say, 'Alan, you're stirring your goddamn coffee with a spoon! And there's the cream and sugar sitting right over there and you haven't put a one of them in!'
"Then I tell him that I'm just going to have to write his next contract for him and that he's not going to get fired no more! A no-fire contract! I told him that you got to ask for what you want' cause if you don't, they figure you ain't worth nothin' anyway! And I did it! I did the contract! I did his contract! Listen to me! I created Alan Feed!!! Did you read that in the history??? Did you see that in the goddamn movie??? I said, Did you see that in that goddamn movie???"
And he falls into a little red-faced jig behind his cash register with one arm stretching forward to detain us further and the other stretching beseechingly towards the sky. All we asked was how much for a Huey Smith record.
Several hundred miles up the road from New Orleans, in an empty, hermetically modern conference room that is acutely air conditioned against the buttery summer air, Bruce Springsteen, who's never met the white man in New Orleans, tells me what he has been thinking about.
"It's a real simple story. You grow up, and they bury you. They keep throwing dirt on you, throwing dirt on and dirt on, and some guys they bury so deep they never get out. Six foot, twelve foot down. Other guys, something comes along and they're able to get some of it away. They get a hand free or they get free one way or another.
"I don't think you ever really blow it all off, but the idea is to keep charging. It's like anything. Everybody can't make it. You can see the guys on the street who aren't going to make it, and that's a frightening thing.
"That's what I'm talking about. That some people get dug in so deep that there's a point where it stops getting shovelled on them and they roll over and start digging down. They literally roll over and start digging down themselves. Because they don't know which way is up. You get down so deep that you don't know which way's up. You don't know if you're digging sideways, up, down, you don't know.. until something comes along, if you,re lucky, and shakes you 'til all of a sudden you have a certain sense of direction and at least know where you're going.
"A lot of people don't ever get that. You go into the bars and you see the guys wandering around in there who got the crazy eyes. They just hate. They're just looking for an immediate expenditure of all this build-up. They're just screaming to throw it all off. But you can't and it turns into, like, death throes. A guy walks into a bar, a little guy, and he walks up to another guy, a dome, and the little guy's looking to get creamed. Looking to get massacred. He wants to. 'Look,' he's saying, 'I'm dying here and I don't know what the fuck to do.' It's a scary thing when you see the guys that ain't gonna get out, just ain't gonna get out.
"But i guess it comes down to ...You just see too many faces, you just see too many.. I's a funny kind of thing. It's the kind of thing where you can't save everybody, but you gotta try."
I remember the guy in New Orleans and how his herky-jerky movements and his near-weeping are less like death throes than like the throes of post-death, the confused, bizarre, parodistic behavior of a dead body responding to the last garbled signals of the brain. It seems a remarkable burden for Bruce Springsteen to have to "try" with this guy. But Bruce is radiant in the sense of his mission these days, reminding me of no one so much as Catcher In The Rye's Holden Caulfield, whose similar passion steered him straight to the nuthouse.
Bruce has never read the book, so I tell him about the key scene where Holden tells his baby sister Phoebe. Says Holden:
"You know what I'd like to be? I mean if I had my goddam choice?"
"What? Stop Swearing."
"You know that song, 'If a body catch a body comin' through the rye'? I'd like-"
"It's 'If a body meet a body coming through the rye'!" old Phoebe said. "It's a poem by Robert Burns."
"I know it's a poem by Robert Burns."
She was right, thoug. It is "If a body meet a body coming through the rye. "I didn't know it then, though.
"I thought it was 'If a body catch a body,' " I said. "Anyway, I keep picturing all these little kids playing some game in this big field of rye and all. Thousands of little kids, and nobody's around - nobody big, I mean - except me. And I'm standing on the edge of some crazy cliff. What I have to do, I have to catch everybody if they start to go over the cliff - I mean if they're running and they don't look where they're going I have to come out from somewhere and catch them. That's all I'd do all day. I'd just be the catcher in the rye and all. I know it's crazy, but that's the only thing I'd really like to be. I know it's crazy."
"Wow," says Bruce when I finish telling him the story. "Thats" wild."
Three years ago, Bruce Springsteen, a nice boy who loved rock 'n' roll more than anything, was dragged into the ugly and brutal fluorescence of American celebrity. For all his naivete (that same naivete that allowed him, for one thing, to love rock'n' roll so much when everybody else had given up and gotten a job), and perhaps because of it, he bore up under the relentless scrutiny, managing in the process to acquit himself remarkably well during his first big league rock'n' roll tour. In the meantime, his record company made hay from his new celebrity and hustled his Born To Run album to number one on the charts and eventually to platinum sales figures. And, so, three years ago a "superstar" was born; surely, the poet must die.
Darkness On The Edge Of Town took eleven months to record. Legal disputes of the kind that tend to accrue to anyone who is suddenly rich and famous occupies the remainder of his over two year layoff. But what appears to have really happened during this period is that Bruce Springsteen stood back, took stock of his world both in and, more importantly, out of rock 'n' roll, and focused back on his career with a newly keen and powerful vision, becoming more the artist than ever. This talent no longer overwhelms him on Darkness but is harnessed fully to a coherent, usually incisive, and definitely more mature view of the world. "This album's stripped down," Sprngsteen says, "to run as clean as possible and stay true."
Paradoxically while it is stripped down, it is also more complete. Where there was once only hope, now there is also warning. Where he once dealt only with youthfulness and "kids," he now also deals with age ("Racing In The Street") and parents ("Factory," "Adam Raised A Cain"). Where everything used to be about movement, the faster the better, now there is a concern with standing still and stiller ("Factory," "Streets Of Fire"). Where a sense of community was all-important, with Spanish Johnny and the Magic Rat and Puerto Rican Jane and Eddie and a whole host of people crisscrossing one another's lives, now a man stands alone on a hill, having lost everything and everyone, in "Darkness On The Edge Of Town." Where he once put certain things into occasionally inadequate words, now he knows to wail wordlessly. Not that Bruce has forsaken the highway, the kids, the gang, the words, or any of that, just that on this new album these concerns have unfolded to reveal their many facets, their true intricacies and subtleties. "Darkness," says Springsteen, "is a confrontation with a lot of things. Born To Run had a certain romantic feel. This is more realistic."
But realistic is a misleading description. There's nothing cold and hardedged about Darkness. The realism here is more naturalism or social realism, realism with a purpose beyond the mere representational, something along the lines of what the WPA artist of the 30's employed to inspire the common man from his massive malaise. No doubt, there is a reformer, a helper at work on this record and one who seems especially driven to the task by deep spiritual connections. I ask Springssteen if he feels religious.
"Yeah, well, but no in the organized way," he responds. "I was raised Catholic and everybody who was raised Catholic hates religion. They hate it, can't stand it. It's funny, I went to a funeral the other day and all my relatives were there and we go to talking about it. It's a funny thing, they're all in their thirties, my sister and all, and they all feel the same way I do. But their kids go to Catholic scholl and to church every Sunday. They're really under the gun to this Catholic thing.
"I quit that stuff when I was in eighth grade. By the time you're older than 13 it's too ludicrous to go along with anymore. By the time I was in eighth grade I just lost it all. I decided to go to public high school, and that was a big deal. If you got up in eighth grade class and said that next year you were going to Freehold Regional it was like... 'Are you insane??? You are dirt! You are the worst! You're a... barbarian!'" He gives a short laugh.
I tell him that what I wanted to get at is where the idea for a song like "Adam Raised A Cain" came from.
Springsteen explains: "I did read the Bible some. I tried to read it for a while about a year ago. It's fascinating. I got into it quite a ways. Great stories. Actually, what happened was I was thinking of writing that particular song, and I went back trying to get a feeling for it."
Elsewhere Bruce has mentioned The Grapes Of Wrath (speaking of social realism and religious allegory) as having been a source of inspiration for Darkness. He readily volunteers that the movie was "one of the big influences," but waxes a bit guilty when asked about the book. "I haven't read it yet," he says, adding quickly, "but I've got it in my suitcase. I have got it.
"The movie affected me a lot. It brought up a lot of questions I didn't think about before. There's the great part where he's coming back from prison and he finds that little guy hiding in the closet. Little guy says, 'They're coming.' 'Well, who's coming?' 'They're coming. Taking away all the land.' And then the guy comes on the tractor and it's their friend. They ask him, 'Who's doing this?' And the tractor guy just says, 'Well, I got my orders from this guy and it goes back to him.'
"To me, it's like, Where do you point the gun? There's no place to take aim. There's nobody to blame. It's just things, just the way. Whose fault is it? It's a little bit of this guy, a little bit of that guy, a little bit of this other guy. That was real interesting to me... And it was great that when that movie came out it was a very popular movie." As I write, Darknesss is an immensely popular record.
Darkness On The Edge Of Town is not a tour de force like Born To Run. That could never be because the things on Darkness and in Bruce Springsteen have become too complex, too ambiguous. The album is a transitional piece, in two ways. It is transitional as far as content in that it is a questioning of the old values and a broadening towards the new; it is transitional as far as Springsteen's career goes because it marks a full ripening of his artistic powers and the emergence as well of a serious social conscience.
Bruce is telling me why he likes touring. "Home never had a big attraction for me. I get excited staying in all these different hotels, in a whole lot of rooms. I'm always curious what the wallpaper's gonna be like. Do I have a big bed or a little one? And what's this funny painting? Always a sense of transition. "Darkness is a transitional record because Springsteen is devoted to the transition that is living.
I was on the road three days and nights with Bruce Springsteen and the E Street Band, and that's about as good a time stand in which to hold a resurrection as I can think of. The problem is I don't know who exactly was more resurrected, Bruce and the band or me. Soutside Johnny once spoke glowingly of Bruce in terms of "charisma." But charisma has the odor of the secular. After what I saw, heard , and felt, I'm looking for a word that's something more in the religious price range. And maybe three confirmed miracles.
No sweat. It's 100 degrees in Houston in July. The death toll from the Texas heat has topped 20 persons and is still rising and Bruce Springsteen is not sweating at the intermission of his titanic three-hour show. Now, some among our rock stars would approach such an accomplishment from the obvious direction - e.g. no effort, no sweat. But not Springsteen. "I'm jumping around and there's oceans of sweat coming off arms and face and all of a sudden... no more sweat! I feel my face, bone dry. I gues I just got no more. Weird."
And then he went out for another hour and a half.
Having not seen Springsteen and the band perform for nearly two years, what initially strikes me my first night on the road - besides the fact that the new songs sound great, besides the fact that he does superior versions of both "Fire" and "Because The Night," besides the fact that the band is as tight and expressive a rock'n' roll unit as I've ever seen, besides the fact that Clarence has achieved such elegance, such authority on stage and on the sax that he more than fills his billing as "King of the World," besides all that and much, much more - is simply the fact that the set is so gruelling and the tour is so long. No sweat, no wonder.
In Houston, it occurs to me that Springsteen's rap in the middle of "Growin Up" is sort of the glue that binds them. He talks about the days when he and Steve were playing around Asbury, waiting to be discovered, how they can't figure out what the missing X factor is and how the ex-manager of the Byrds and the ex-manager of so and so have all said they'll come down and see them and so forth. Eventually, Bruce winds it around to Clarence descending from a spaceship to make the band complete. Space travel aside, it's clear that this is pretty much the way it was with this band (indeed, what band didn't count on the helping hand of the friend of a friend of an ex-manager sometime?), and that reciting the story, remembering their humble beginnings, their shared past, provides a sense of - if you'll pardon me - roots. That, along with love.
As if to confirm my theory, Bruce later tells me another story about the early days when they first travelled to Boston and were staying in the attic of a friend's house where there were only four mattresses. "So every night after the gig we had to try and figure out whose turn it was to sleep on the floor." He laughs. "But it really didn't matter. The guys were great. They're guys who you can go through that sort of stuff with. It was never a down. Me and Steve would always sit back and say, 'As bad as this is right now, it will never be as bad as it was before we made an album or got a break.' Who are we to complain? This is Easy Street. I'm lucky number one. So are all those guys. A bunch of lucky jokers. It's a lot of work, but you're doing something you like. We always considered ourselves to be way in front with the whole ball game.
"I know what it's like not to be able to do what you want to do, 'cause when I go home that's what I see. It's no fun. It's no joke. I see my sister and her husband. They're living the lives of my parents in a certain kind of way. They got kids, they're working hard. They're just real nice, real soulful people. These are people you can see something in their eyes. It's really something. I know a lot of people back there..." The picture looms vived in his mind, so does what can only be described as his mission. "That's why my album, a big part of it, is the way it is. It's about people that are living the lives of their parents, working two jobs... It's also about a certain thing where they don't give up. I asked my sister, 'What do you do for fun?' 'I don't have any fun,' she says. She wasn't kidding... I'm just really thinking about a whole lot of things."
He thinks at this hands for a moment. "A whole lot of stuff went down on me in the last year or two and then I was around home a lot and there was a lot of stuff going on with the people I was friends with back there, and I see it from all sides. Which is why I can't go out on stage at night and not try and bring it home. Because... what an ingrate??? What a spit in the face of everything that is anything??? I could never do that. I'd rather get thrown off the bus. They should throw me off the bus at 60 m.p.h. 'You don't belong in the bus!' It's funny when I read something I say about this stuff. I always sound like some kind af fanatic, some kind of zealot. But I think there's things that people take for granted. How can you take it for granted? I stick too close to the other side to know what's real about this side. And I still got too many people who are close to me who are still living on that other side."
The Bruce Springsteen tour rolls on into New Orleans in a sort of time warp trip from Houston, a forbidding city of the future, into this forbidden city of the past. "Who you got in here?" the cop who lolls about the lobby of our French Quarter hotel asks the desk clerk watching the unusual activity. "Bruce 'Springsteen,' "drawls the clerk, adding in his mind no doubt, "You know, that Jewish fellow from up north." Bruce Springsteen? That's right, or at least that's how they've got him on the guest manifest.
Music. It's everywhere. If anyplace, American music was born here, right down the block from the hotel at what is now called Jackson Square and what was once called Congo Square because that's where all the blacks and their music were auctioned into slavery. Musicians. There's probably more per square foot in New Orleans than anyplace in the world. (Just ask the white man at the biggest oldies shop.) Always a horn blowing somewhere in the heat. It's not quite the 20th Century here. It's not quite reality. Maybe it's the movies, but it's not faked. around the corner the Good Friends Bar has amended its factory-printed sign with some hand- lettering: "Under new management - Same old customers." No future, only past in New Orleans. In the middle of Bourbon Street, a scrawny black kid dances a little circle, metal taps taped onto his raggedy sneakers. I take that back: No future, only New Orleans here. An existence outside of time.
He's a teetotalling Yankee, whose songs these days have more in common with the rural West than the South. But when he talks about rock'n' roll as if it were some spirit creature that takes possession of a man, or, indeed, when he is playing on a stage like a man possessed, it is clear that he belongs in New Orleans, this musician/poet/Catholic/fallen-away Catholic/ religious seeker/relegious person (?)/exhortator/mad dancer and raspy-voiced shaman Bruce Springsteen along with his E Street tent show. Does he even know where he is? It's hard to tell. But of the three shows I saw this tour, this one is the best.
Halleujah! The bibical wailing of "Adam Raised A Cain" becomes a voodoo chant here. The fever and "The Fever," a song he has added in Houston, burn white-hot, turning the soaking air to steam. The jungle drums and jungle sound effects of "Not Fade Away"/"She's The One" bounce off Jackson Square and echo back to the coastline of Africa. Like the spontaneous Dixieland parades that can spil down Bourbon Street at a moment' notice, Bruce and Clarence spil off the stage and up the aisles into the reaching and exultant crowd, a rock 'n' roll parade. Then there's "The Rap."
Bruce Springsteen as usual steps out in the middle of "Growin' Up" to talk. In Houston, he told a sci-fi/horror movie story about things that aren't really spooky; tonight, he invokes the real thing, and it goes something like this:
"When I was a boy there were two things in my house that my parents didn't like. One was me. The other was the guitar. 'That goddam guitar!' my father used to say. I think he thought all the things in my room were made by the same company, 'That Goddamn guitar. The Goddamn stereo. Those Goddamn records...' Anyway, one day my parents called me downstairs for a talk. And they sit me down at the kitchen table with 'em and they start telling me it's about time I start getting serious with my life. 'And don't tell me about that goddamn guitar!' my father says. See, my father wants me to be a lawyer and my mother wants me to be an author. 'Be a lawyer,' my father tells me, 'then you'll be all set. Lawyers own the world!' Now, my mother's Italian and my father's Irish - and I'm stuck here in the middle - so they decide I should go around the corner and have a talk with the priest about my life. 'And don't say anything about the goddamn guitar!'
"Okay, I go around the corner and I walk up the steps to the rectory and I ring the bell and after a while the priest comes out. "I'm Mr. Springsteen's son,' I say to the priest, 'and he told me I should come over to you and have a serious talk what I'm gonna do with my life. 'The priest, he thinks for a minute, and then says to me, 'Have you tried praying, my son? I think you should speak to God about this.'
"So I go home and I'm thinking about how I've got to speak to God and how to find him and then I call up the Big Man, Clarence, 'cause he knows everybody. I say, 'listen, I got to talk to God about my life. You know where I can find him?' 'Sure,' he said to me, 'I spoke to him last night. He'll be up on the hill by the cemetery tonight.' Great.
"That night I go over to the hill by the cemetery and it's real dark and I'm climbin' the hill and climbin' until I'm almost at the top and I stop and I'm lookin' all around. Then I look up at the sky and I say, 'God?'"
Perfectly timed, right on the mark, out of the cavernous rapture of the audience a New Orleans kid yells in response: "What?" And Springsteen cracks up. Still laughing, he tosses back, "God's in the cheap seats tonight. ...Listen, God, if I'd've know I could've at least gotten ya a backstage pass or something." The crowd whoops. The shaman is back in control.
Springsteen says, "'God? You there?'" At which point, Danny Federici hits an eerie, piercing electronic note that ricochets around his speakers like a bolt from heaven. Springsteen crouches in the spotlight in awe and in alarm. "'God, ya gotta help me. My mother wants me to be an auther, and my father wants me to be a lawyer and they told me to go to the priest and he told me to come to you and all I want to do'" - he pauses reverentially - "'is play my guitar...!" He pauses again. The music swells slightly but otherwise, there's complete silence. The audience sits breathless, waiting to see: Can this Yankee rock'n' roller conjure too? Springsteen resumes in a harsh, rushed whisper. "All of a sudden, there's this light in the sky above me and a great big voice booms out and says..." Beat. The music drops down. "'Let it rock!'" And the band hits it, Springsteen singing, "I stood stone-like at midnight..." The audience is on their feet cheering. It works!
After the show a group of European journalists is ushered backstage for an informal press conference with Bruce. While the rest of the band members casually make their way to the postconcert party on the other side of town. Springsteen, who is as uplifting and inspiring a performer as there is, becomes almost vehement denying an English reporter's suggestion that rock'n' roll is about nihilism. Two days later I remind Bruce of the exchange. He makes a small boxlike gestures with his hands to try and contain this belief he feels is too big to contain.
"Sometimes people ask," he tells me, "who are your favorites? My favorites change. Sometimes it's Elvis. Sometime it's Buddy Holly. Different personalities. For me, the idea of rock'n' roll is sort of my favorite. The felling. It's a certain thing... Like; rock'n' roll came to my house" - again, rock'n' roll becomes palpable, become flesh - "where there seemed to be no way out. It just seemed like a dead end street, nothing I like to do, nothing I wanted to do except roll over and go to sleep or something. And it came into my house - snuck in ya know, and opened up a whole world of possibilities. Rock'n' roll. The Beatles opened doors. Ideally, if any stuff I do could ever do that for somebody, that's the best. Can't do anything better than that. Rock'n' roll motivates. It's the big gigantic motivator, at least it was for me.
"There's a whole lot of things involved, but that's what I think you gotta remain true to. That idea, that feling. That's the real spirit of the music. You have to give to the audience and try to click that little trigger, that little mechanism. It's different things to different people. I got in a cab with a guy down South, and we're riding around then he says, 'Hey, you know what I like about your shows is I go see a concert and I'm fixed all day for the next day, and when I go to your shows I fell good for a week.' " Springsteen wheezes a laugh. "This is what it is. I thought that was a good review."
Another good review: During the show that night in New Orleans, a primitively fortyish woman leans over the edge of the stage and hands Bruce a tiny object. At the end of the song, I see him lean back down to her, trying to return the gift, but she won't budge. Finally, there is nothing he can do but pocket the gift and get on with the show. "It was a ring. And I looked at it, and it looked like a real thing, you know, with stones in it. So I tell her - I can't keep this. And she tells me it was her grandmother's engagement ring, and she wants me to have it! That's gonna make me keep it? Maybe if she'd told me she'd told me she'd just bought it at Woolworth's for 39 cents... but her grandmother's engagement ring??? Wow, what's that?"
That, I tell him, must be True Love. He leaves the ring with the hall manager with the instructions to return it to the lady should she come around looking, having had a change of heart. That is caring.
Bruce heads back to the hotel after the press conference, and I'm over at the party at Acy's Pool Hal & Restaurant on Sophie Wright Place. Situated in a poor black and white neighborhood outside the French Quater, Acy's is a windowless cement floor dump where the only light is from the abrasive fluorescent lamps swinging over the six fully occupied pool tables. Something right out of the movie Fat City (there is in fact a city outside of New Orleans called Fat City).
By the time I arrived, the crew and band had decimated the Dixie beer, leaving only Miller and Pabst Blue Ribbon, and Ernie K. Doe and his pick-up band playing off in the corner have decimated the band and crew. Ernie K. Doe had his one and only hit record with "Mother-In- Law" in the early 60's and until an intrepid advance scout from Springsteen party unearthed him, had been living in relative obscurity like so many other greats of his era in New Orleans. As I walk in, Ernie K. Doe, dapper in a beige multivented suit over a dark open-neck silk shirt, every hair carefully pomaded into place, has run out of words to the song. But he doesn't want the folks to stop dancing, and is repeating "Well, all right" endlessly over the solid locomotive beat. When after a good five minutes Ernie K. Doe has run out of "Well, all right"'s , he brings the music down and introduces the band - but not by name. "Let's have a hand for the man on the bass!" he shouts, and there's a round of applause. "Let's have a hand for the man on the drums!" and so on, until he gets to Clarence Clemons, who is sitting in discreetly with his sax. I wonder. For all Ernie K. Doe knows, Clarence is just another guy who sauntered in off the street. Like I say, music is at least second nature to New Orleans. I listen carefully to his introductions. Without missing a beat, with not the slightest emphasis, Ernie K. Doe calls out, "Let's have a hand for the man on the tenor sax!" The locomotive beat continues. Ernie K. Doe falls silent (these party gigs get tired after a while) and then while the steady semi-drunk dance floor continues to bop, Ernie K. Doe goes through the introductions (one more time!) for want of somthing better. "Let's have another hand..." Clarence Clemons plays on discreetly, diligently, strictly "the man on the tenor sax" playing for the love of rock'n' roll.
As much as you can take any of the Confederacy at face value (you can't really), you can say that Jackson, Mississippi looks like a simple, sleepy town, and that it is. After a day off in New Orleans, the Springsteen/E Street juggernaut is off to Jackson, a couple hundred miles up the Delta. The auditorium there is probably the newest and largest structure in town, and two different times, as I'm standing in front of it, cars full of kids pull up to ask where they can find it. I tell them and assume they do, because the hall in Jackson is full later.
Bruce Springsteen says that playing new halls like this makes him nervous. He much prefers a place that's been "broken into rock'n' roll." I understand his point. The crowd here is relatively subdued, almost indifferent to the carpeting and new chandeliers. But belying his statement, the show is about as loose as Bruce and the band get.
"Let's get some lights on ya. I got a pimple on my face and you probably look better than I do," Springsteen say to the crowd at one point in the show. By intermission, of course, caution has been cast to the wind and everyone's clapping and bopping, and crowding the front of the stage as much as the older security guards will allow.
One underfed blond boy is particularly excited. Oblivious to the exhortations of the guards, he is dancing wildly at the edge of the stage, eyes riveted on his favorite rock'n' roller. At one point, between songs, he tosses a Bruce Springsteen belt buckle onstage, a present. Bruce picks it up, admires it, thanks the boy, and without thinking asks jokingly, "So where's the belt?" Need I say more? In a second, the fan has ripped off his belt and tosses it up, too. Next comes his shirt. The guards make their move. "I had my eyes closed to sing a verse," says Bruce, "and the next time I looked, the kid's shirt is on the stage. I'm looking around for his pants, when I see the guard grab him."
There is a slight scuffle (slight compared to the heavy head-busting tactics of most of the sadisto New York security goons), and the boy disappears into the crowd. Bruce tramps the edge of the stage looking for the boy; implicit in his warning to the guard to cool it. Then he runs back to Miami Steve who relays the message to one of the road crew. "'Find him. Find the kid,' is what I said," says Bruce. "'Cause I don't want him going out.' What happens is that a lot of the security in a lot of places don't understand. Kids get real excited, but they're not mean; they're just excited. I always watch out. Like in San Diego, I had to jump down and get this kid out. One of the security guards had the kid by the head. I'd seen the kid at a couple of shows and I'd talked to him outside. This kid's not looking for trouble. What happens is the kids have a reaction to security, which is if the security guard grabs 'em, they think they're gonna get thrown out and they try to get away. People just don't wanna get thrown out of the show. Anyway, this kid in San Diego's real excited. He runs up to the stage. They grab him and try to pull him back and he tries to get away. So I went down and I pulled the kid away and the security guards are trying not to let go 'cause they're afraid he's gonna do something. Finally, we sent him up onstage and let him sit on the side. You gotta watch. You gotta do that. I can't watch kids getting knocked down in the front row because that's me. That's a part of me."
Did someone say something about a fisher of men?
Maybe the times are too complicated for miracles. Maybe, as Springsteen says, "The enemy's complicated, much more subtle now." Maybe it's just hard to be a saint in America. Too much dirt. Too many faces.
The underfed blond kid without his shirt has brought one more present to the backstage entrance after the show where he's waited an hour a half for Springsteen to make his customary appearance (I have detained Bruce with this interview). Springsteen picks the kid out of the small crowd around the door, asks him how he is, laughs and then carefully autographs the boy's pro-offered frisbee. "Thanks!" the kid says feverishly. "Thanks for comin'!" says Springsteen.
As Bruce turns his attention to other fans, the hungry boy looks at his back with intense hungry eyes, hesitates for a second, his jaw hanging open, his tongue secretly wrapping itself around a pronunciation he wants to get right. Then as the crowd flows between the boy and his idol, the boy decides to do it and then blurts at Bruce's back. It's a word he's been working on for days, weeks, maybe months or years: it's his last and dearest gift to this Yankee guy who means so much to him. "Shalom!" he shouts. That his final, extra special gift goes unheard in the hubbub doesn't matter. The boy dashes off, happy to be saved again (at least for the week), happier that he has tried something for Bruce Springsteen.
"Where you all from?"
"New York City," my companion and I respond.
"I was producing shows at the Fox and then Alan came up and was producing shows at the Fox and Paramount, too. We were both doing shows, but you might say I created New York City!!!" The white man in the oldies shop goes on and on. We're not allowed to leave.
"And that Hank Williams story, that movie, ya know [Your Cheating Heart, 1956]. There he is lying in the back of the car all dead on booze and pills and where was he headed for? Canton, Ohio! Did you read that? Did you see that in the movie? There I am backstage, cussing him all up and down, saying that when I get my hands on that son-of-a-bitch I'm gonna tear him limb from limb. I'm out 750 bucks! I was producin' a Hank Williams show that night and I'm out 750 bucks! 750 bucks I don't have! Wouldn't that've made a much better ending for that movie? Me standing backstage pulling out my hair and cussing him out 'cause I'm out 750 bucks! Did you ever hear about that?
"Huey Smith, the same Huey 'Piano' Smith right here on this record. (He's a preacher now. Don't make no money. Nooo! Huey 'Piano' Smith mows lawns for two bucks an hour!) So Huey says to me he just wants to make enough money so he can sue that produer of his. I say, 'You got it all wrong, Huey. That's not the way to approach it.' I say, 'Huey, I got an idea. You and me are gonna put on a show with all the old New Orleans people and were gonna do it right over there in that Superdome! And then you know what? Huey? We are gonna laugh all the way to the bank!'"
But he isn't laughing. And as we edge out the door he's talking again. Half a block away as we round the corner, I'm sure he's talking still. Weeks later, I'm sure he's still talking and almost weeping. I'm sure that somewhere in the murky city of New Orleans a white man is detaining rock'n' roll fans with his past. And somewhere out in the heartland, Bruce Springsteen is digging after him.